Is unrequited love really love?

I don’t ask for a lot of things 
You say I pressure you 
But is it my words that impact you? 
Or is it your perception of me that bothers you? 

I asked for your attention,
Commitment and love 
Yet, despite it all
It’s tears that I Always have
You say you love me
But it’s your best friend you always prioritise

When things go wrong
I want to be the first shoulder you cry on
When you are happy
I want to be the first to witness
That huge smile on your face
When you think of something
I appreciate you sharing 
But why does it feel me being number two 
Will always be the case

I look back, I can see now
You have your best friend.
Yes it’s true
You’ve known each other for long
Shared secrets and dreams
Been through thick and thin
Boy, what would I do
It feels like I’m always competing 
And deep inside I know I will never win 

I tried telling you 
Explaining and 
Crying even, but alas, all in vain 

Enough is enough I would always say
I guess it’s better if we part ways
I love you dearest but
How should I say
My love can only endure 
Up to a certain way

Is it goodbye you want me to say 
Will that be the easier way 
I am tired 
I have always been 
Being number two will not make me win 

I have tried 
I have tried to understand 
I have loved 
I have loved you with all I have 
You may not see it now 
But hopefully someday you will realise
You had me at my best 
And we’re parting at my worst